ஃ✿ Chapter 11 ✿ஃ
Cedrick was completely avoiding me. I only saw him on his way to school by accident yesterday when I was being chased down by Angel… but then, there wasn’t any sign of him… not even in his usual spots, the tennis court or the gym. I guess Cedrick is really devoted to Dominique’s promise after all… that was a bit upsetting… actually that was extremely upsetting… I spent all night tossing and turning in misery…
I wanted to have a talk with Dominique, see what’s he’s fussing about. He could at least make Cedrick talk to me again. I saw him sneaking through the front gate of my school this morning, probably had a date with Cedrick. I couldn’t leave him alone ungrounded…
“Dominique, long time no see” I walked up to him, smirking and looking all cool.
“Get away, freak, you’re gonna get me captured” he hissed angrily at me. I was offended as usual, but that moment was the last straw. I grabbed his ridiculous headphones that’s been hanging on his shoulders since the first day I met him.
“Listen here buddy, I may need to talk with you” I irritatedly said, pinning him on the nearby wall.
“Ah let go of my headphones and get off!!!” he struggled me off. “The wall is so dirty, I can’t believe you just pinned me on it, look what have you done to my uniform!” he groused in a temper.
“I don’t care, we need to talk” I insisted angrily. The bell gave us a mini heart attack as it rang so suddenly, Dominique looked shockingly enraged.
“Ah the bell! I was supposed to meet Cedrick 10 minutes before the bell” he said in a high-pitched complaining cry. “I hope you’re happy, goofball… oh how I hate you so much…”
He kept complaining and giving me dirty looks. I was annoyed, but happy to ruin his date with Cedrick. “Oh how pity… looks like you’ll be leaving… off to your school” I happily said, mocking him… and hoping to slightly insult him.
“I’m not going to school… I’m gonna wait till he’s over” he groused a decision.
“Lucky for you, I’ll be skipping my first class too, so we have plenty of time to sort things out” I suggested in a happy tune.
“I have nothing to sort with you, you’re stupid and I hate you, that’s all I need to sort” he said to me in a terribly rude tune, I couldn’t believe how rude he was! He even walked away as he burned me alive. I followed him to continue my talk with him, still insisting to sort things out…
“Can we talk about Cedrick for a minute?” I pulled his arm to stop him from walking. “Dominique…”
“What do you want from Cedrick?” he turned back to face me. “Why are you always up in his business anyway? Can’t you see that he doesn’t want you?”
“You’re the one who don’t want me… in fact, you’re the one who’s keeping him away from me…” I said, he froze. “I’ll give Cedrick my heart, whether you like it or not”
“He doesn’t need your stupid heart, he’s got mine” his echo went through my ears, but I was confused. Dominique gasped in a shock, he shoved me away to proceed with his walk. His phrase caused me serious confusion, I couldn’t let him flee after causing it.
“Cedrick’s got your heart…?!” I confusedly asked. “How on earth did he accept your heart but not mine?”
He walked away in silence, so on… I continued to follow him. I caught a glimpse of his face, it appeared to be a bit reddish… what was he blushing from…?
“Dominique… is there something I’m missing here…?” I shoved his shoulder lightly, so he’d reply. “What’s wrong, Dominique? Why are you quiet all of a sudden?”
I even giggled cluelessly, trying to go through what he just said and what he meant when he said it, then he decided to speak. “As if you didn’t get it” he murmured ashamedly.
“Get what…? Am I supposed to get something?” I was even more confused.
“Don’t make me say it out loud…” he let out a sigh, I could have sworn I heard a giggle come out too. “Man, you’re so stupid!”
“Say what out loud…?” I asked in confusion. “And why am I stupid?!”
He turned around again to look at me, I heard him gulp before saying anything else.
“I have unconditional feelings for Cedrick, OK? I like him, I adore him, I $@*!ing love him, happy?” he looked me straight in the eyes and somewhat looked like he was confessing. I wasn’t sure I was confused anymore, my confusion turned into a great long shock… I paused to put up the pieces together…
“You love Cedrick?!” I said out loud in a shock, my jaws dropping and my eyes opened wide. He instantly rushed over to cover my mouth.
“Don’t say it out loud, dork” he hissed, with his hands over my mouth.
I thought for sure Dominique was playing with my head… though every time I blink, I see his face getting even more reddish. He looked ashamed and just kept on hushing me, silently sighing with embarrassment. I shoved away his hands.
“Unconditional feelings…? Is that even possible?!” I was still in shock, trying to go through with the fact he gave me, though I was in a silly mood so I felt the urge to make silly jokes and laugh at him. “Is that even legal?” I giggled.
“………” he gulped in shame, “Don’t say that…”
My silly mood was gone. He sounded like he was serious… DEAD serious. He was blushing and a slightly upsetting atmosphere soon took place.
“You were serious…?” I gulped nervously, I was waiting for him to nod or something, anything that could take my confusion away… but I soon came to believe that he wasn’t lying. “Dominique… I had no idea, I’m sorry…”
He took awhile to reply, as if he didn’t want to reply. “Shut up, what are you sorry for?” he pissed off. “I don’t need your pity”
“You’re in no stage to be rude, brother” I said. I wondered if it was ok to call him ‘brother’… I hope it didn’t offend him in any way. I looked at his pitiful expressions, looking below and biting his lips in shame. “You wanna tell me how it happened?”
Dominique decided to go out the school and he was expecting me to follow him, so I had no other option. We went to the kindergarten’s playground nearby, he sat on one of those small swings and slowly started rocking back and forward. I just stood there… waiting for him to sort out his thoughts. It was a moment of silence…
“So… I can see that you’re embarrassed about it, dude” I said unconsciously. “Oh! Is that Ok…?”
“Huh?” he looked at me in confusion.
“I just called you ‘dude’… I’m sorry… was that Ok…?” I said, covering my mouth and hoping I didn’t offend him.
“Shut up… I’m not gay… or anything like it” he clicked his tongue and looked below. “I’m fully a male and everything… I just happened to be attracted to another male… I’m just… I’m just confused…”
He looked extremely sad and depressed, I sadly thought I could cheer him up. “There’s nothing wrong with being… confused…” I gulped, smiling. “These things happen… I guess…”
“It was never supposed to happen… I don’t even know how it happened… Cedrick and I were like brothers since we were kids and we did everything together… I just kinda brought myself to like him in an unusual way during that time” he let out a little giggle. “And the best part is, others started laughing at me for it… and I never used to care… as long as I had Cedrick, nothing mattered actually…”
“Does Cedrick know about your feelings for him…?” I asked, but he shook his head. “I can’t say I understand how you feel…”
He didn’t reply instantly, he just took his time to think.
“Nobody does…” he sighed in depression and smiled at me.
I was brave enough to not let my tears fall. Hearing his half of the story was heart-breaking and majorly sad. He let his hair cover most of his face, so he looked more EMOish than ever. He didn’t cry, so I couldn’t cry either… but if he did cry that day… I know I’d be crying twice as hard. I can’t deny my depression either. I never seen him so quiet and innocent… it’s Dominique we’re talking about… that moment, his devilish image was completely erased…
My discovery about Dominique was still shocking… I refused to go to sleep that night. I wondered how he felt, being so close to the one he loved and not being able to do anything about it… not even confess. I think I was placed in that position long before I met them all… I was there in your background all the time… isn’t that right, Jadrien…?
Wow… look at that… I haven’t talked to you nor mentioned your name in ages!
………I’m sorry………
If I could recall anything from that night… I cried myself to sleep…
